I just hate it when plans change.

I should be in Anaheim, CA right now, sitting in a hotel room gazing out of the window at a Disneyland skyline prepping to gush my excitement to you while I sip at some alcoholic beverage I shouldn't have but since I'm close enough to 21 and on vacation, my parents got me anyway..

But I'm not.

Our plans got pushed back for two more days. We will leave on New Years day early in the morning to hopefully make it there by late afternoon. My aunt lives in Redlands and I'm pretty sure we're heading out her way to meet up with her for dinner. My two cousins Cammie and Lori, their husband and kids will probably be there too.

This 'cold' is still kicking my butt. My glands are swollen and my throat is hurting. Sinuses are all messed up and I seem to be lacking an appetite. Rare.

Zach took off with his friend Jake tonight. His wife Erica and daughter are away until tomorrow so he invited Zach over for pizza, beer and all things Xbox 360. He also announced that Erica is pregnant with number two! She's about eight weeks in. I'm excited and happy for them. I hope Erica can handle two babies so young. I'm kind of nervous for her.

Happy New Years to you all! The next time I post I will be at the happiest place on earth =]

I've caught cold number two. My head is congested, my throat is so sore, my body just aches and as bad as I feel the need to cough, it doesn't do any good.

Christmas was a little difficult this year. My uncle was rushed into the ER Christmas morning. Besides my aunt and cousin, he has a regular nurse that comes by to replace his breathing tube and catheter and make sure he's doing well. This past week she went on vacation so a new nurse was sent over. She replaced his catheter and later we were told she somehow injured his liver doing it. An infection quickly set in and it made him sick all night so off to the hospital he went. He had a minor surgery and was put into the ICU for two days.

Other than that, my family got pictures done yesterday. I only got to upload two before blogger got difficult with me.

Zach & I.

My brothers & I.

Tomorrow I'm finally getting my cell phone replaced. I tried to get it Saturday but the phone I decided on was sold out. So, I talked to the guy about another and decided to go ahead with it, and surprise! That too was sold out. He sent me to another store that had the phone I was looking for in the next city over that's affiliated with AT&T. Unfortunately, the man who was trying to sell me the phone was rude and kept insisting that I needed to spend two hundred dollars to get the rebate (which was not the same at the first store I went to). I also had to add on navigation for ten extra dollars and he just kept going on and on.

Finally, I flat out told him that I was not interested in paying him all that money for something I could get for less at AT&T if I just waited. I also mentioned on my way out of the store I would never come back and wouldn't recommend them to anybody.

It's been a super long week,that's for sure. Tuesday we're leaving for Orange County, if I can kick this stupid cold. It's definitley not giving up easily.

Christmas Ever rush

Today has been craziest of all crazy days. We've been wrapping gifts, cleaning like maniacs, baking and making last minute shopping trips ALL day. I'm so exhausted!


My brother, his wife and there two babies are driving up from Southern California right now, and should be here by 11pm. Maybe midnight. My other brother will also be driving up from Southern California and should get here about the same time.


I love that my niece and nephew will be here for Christmas. We bought them some toys that will be left out from Santa and I'm so excited to fill stockings and all that good stuff tonight. By the time the kids get here, they'll be dead asleep. I even have some suff from 'Santa' already under the tree =]


Everything is still in jumbles around this place so I'll get some pictures later when it's all nice and finished!

In 9 days...

I'm going to Disneyland!!!!

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My mom told me today that our Christmas gift this year will be two days at Disney. I'm so excited. I've never been to Disneyland at Christmas time where it's all decked out in holiday decorations. I went earlier this year in April with a couple friends, but it was not at all as fun as I had hoped. We stayed at the Grand Californian Hotel and pretty much never left it. Those friends were pretty hefty drinkers and wanted to bar hop and whatever.

My mom is leaving details to herself for the most part. I recently had an accident with my cell phone and was hoping for a new one. While I was prodding at her about going to look for a new one, she blurted it out. Haha. Even at twenty years old, I can still bug my mother enough to make her explode secrets.

In other news around here, my little kitten lost his two front teeth the other day. My mom found one on the couch, and the other he must have swallowed. I was worried at first, because I had no idea if cats lost teeth or not. But I looked it up and sure enough, they do. So my toothless kitty has been chewing up everything he can get his mouth around.

It's still freezing outside. Today was one of those beautiful sunny days and it appeared to be a tad warmer out. Wrong. It was much colder than it had been. I felt cheated.

It's been a long week this week. But every year I get like this the week before Christmas. Everything seems to drag on and on.

Only 8 days!!!

Have you ever wondered?

So, today I was reading all the blogs I follow. Most of the people I follow on blogger, I've been following since AOL Journals. I didn't have a journal over there and I felt because I didn't, I wouldn't leave comments. When the journals closed, I followed the same people over here and made a blog of my own.
A little while ago, I wondered if the people I follow ever wondered why I follow them?
If I had 20 or 30 or however many followers, I'd wonder too. I like reading about other peoples lives. Most are married, some have kids. I read about people in the south, on the east coast, in the middle of the United states, all over. It's just fun to see what other peoples lives are like. What they get to do, how they get to live. It's fun. Kind of like a book that doesn't end.
I hope you know if I follow you, it's because you're an interesting person. =]
Besides that little brain fart, it's raining and cold in Nor Cal today. It says it should be 45 degree's outside, but with the wind, it feels colder. I'm refusing to leave the house until it warms up a little and the rain kicks back.
All our Christmas stuff is up and I can't believe Christmas is 11 days away. Eek! I still haven't even started holiday shopping yet. I'm kind of low on money so bills and such have to be taken care of first. I'm not expecting anything this year, so hopefully all goes well.
I should have pictures in my next entry. I'm off to make something warm. ?it's sooo cold =o

Nobody knows what's wong.

[ I'll be honest, I'm writing this more for myself. I'm trying to get all of what I know together so I can say what I need to say to a neurologist without being looked at like I'm crazy. If you happen to read through the whole thing and have any advice, I'd really love to hear it.]

It is honestly the worst feeling in the world when you know you have a serious medical issue and your doctor can't give you a diagnosis.

I've been dealing with this problem since 2006. I can only describe my problem like a seizure. They only happen while I'm sleeping. Severe shaking, trouble breathing, and serious fatigue the whole day after. It's been really unpredictable. January of 2007, they seemed to just go away. I didn't have a single problem sleeping, nothing. This past August, they seemed to have returned with a vengeance.

Now they're much more violent, they last longer and the side affects are way worse. When I first started having these episodes, I would wake up right before it happened and would have to trooper through the whole thing. It wasn't too bad, they didn't seem to last long and I would be able to calm myself down. I'd also be able to tell you exactly what I felt, what happened and an estimate of how long it lasted.

I had one this morning, and I don't remember a damn thing. The only thing I can remember is hearing someone breathing really hard and thinking how I had to get up and go to the bathroom. A couple seconds after that, I realized it was me breathing, but I wasn't feeling it. It's like my body and my brain weren't in sync. Then it's like they finally caught up to each other and that's when I really was aware of what had happened.

After these seizures happen, it takes a good 10 minutes for me to get it together. My muscles are shot, I can't move myself and pretty much I just lay there as dead weight and cry hysterically. Zach tells me there's a bunch of times that I scream at the top of my lungs, like I'm trying to get someone to help me.

The after effects are cruddy, as you can imagine. Right now, I'm very tired. I'm very emotional and feel like crying. I have a headache the size of Texas and my sense of feel has intensified by a thousand. Just rubbing my nose is the weirdest feeling.

I've had an EEG, and it came back normal. This morning the advice nurse at Kaiser recommended that I go to the emergency room and have tests run. I don't know how much good that would do. ERs are for people who are really in an emergency. Not someone who is okay right now but just has an issue.

I think that this might have something to do with my RLS. I was diagnosed with Restless Leg Syndrome 2 years ago, and it's only in my left leg. Evert time one of these seizures happens, my left knee always hurts after. Not just like a small ache. It's an intense burning, throbbing pain. I'm not on any medications for it, so I'm going to bring it up with my new doctor. The one I've been seeing doesn't seem to believe a word I say and looks at me like I'm wasting her time.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm wrong, but what I wrote is all I know. All I want is a doctor to look at me and say "Don't worry. We're going to find out what's wrong."

Is that too much to ask?

Random picture entry.

The kind of days NorCal has been having.

Home made cookies.

I love making these.

Just regualar chocolate chip cookies.

My cat likes this empty coke box. He's been playing with it for two days.

He also likes to get in the middle of board games.

But he's just a cutie.

Whew.

It's been a busy couple days.

I've been babysitting the past couple days for a pair of mom's who happen to be best friends. One has 1 kid, the other has 4 kids.

Thankfully, I'm getting paid well and in all honesty, babysitting is really not a job. I get to sit in a warm house [or cold in the summer =)] and play.

Shockingly last night with 5 kids, it was easy. The 3 older girls played Wii for awhile, we watched a holiday special on Nick and made some cookies. It was noisy and crazy, but I had fun.

Driving home last night was rough. Thanks to the bay area fog, I couldn't see five feet in font of my car. We've had fog pretty much every night these past two weeks, and it doesn't burn off until close to noon. I love winter, but I hate driving in fog. It scares me to death.

Hopefully, we'll be pulling out Christmas decorations tonight or tomorrow. I have a ton of pictures I'd love to share, but I don't have the patience to upload them. So be on the look for the most random picture entry tomorrow. Haha.

I hope you all are having a great weekend!

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