I've been M.I.A.

Sorry to all you faithful readers! (insert cricket chirp here.. hah)

I've been busy these past couple days. Working, busy around the house, and worrying my little blond head off.

I was at work on Thursday and right as my boss got home, I got a text message. It was from my friend Jeni so I checked it. Here's what it said:

"Just wanted to let you know Jeni is in the hospital. She collapsed in Castro Valley. They think it's her heart. I just got here. Just wanted to let everyone she talks to know."

Not exactly the thing you want to here via text message. I was confused and showed my boss and she asked me if it was a joke. I had no idea. She pretty much shoved me out the door telling me to call Zach and make sure this was serious.

I called Zach with no answer. I got home and called again. He answered and I told him about the text and he was just as shocked as I was. He got off the phone with me to call Jeni's husband Clay to see what was going on. Clay told Zach that they were in Castro Valley visiting his mom and they were at Starbucks when she just collapsed. He called 911 and she was rushed to a near by hospital. So far all I know is that her heart was inflamed and its not pumping her blood correctly. I have no idea about the severity of her problem or anything. I called her phone but it was off.

Last we heard, she was maybe going to be moved to Stanford Hospital because they have an amazing cardiac unit. Until we can get a hold of Clay again, we won't be able to visit her or help Clay out with their daughter or food or anything. We've done what we can do for right now.

It makes me sad though. It doesn't feel like I've done enough. I really value their friendship and they have been nothing but good to Zach and I. I feel like now is the best time to return the favor. It's frustrating.

Well... I have work again tonight at 6. After that I'm supposed to be hanging out with some friends, but we'll see how that turns out. I'm not really feeling up to it. Hope you all have a good weekend =]

Man oh man.

It's been a long, treacherous day already and its not even four o'clock.

Guys drive me nuts. It's official. Simply asking Zach to pick up his jeans and bag the garbage can today set off World War 3. We rarely have these big blow up fights. You know, the kind where you prod and poke and make nasty comments to make the other feel bad? Yeah, it was that kind. We calmed down enough to apologize to each other, but we decided to just spend the rest of the day away from each other to avoid fueling anything.

It's weird. Sometimes I feel judged by other people because we have these fights. I've had people [who are no longer my friends] tell me how unhealthy it is to fight like this and we might as well call it quits now. They've said it's not normal, it's verbal abuse. My favorite was from a girl I am no longer friends with. She said because she and her boyfriend of 3 months hadn't ever done that, we shouldn't either.

Right.

I know people fight like we do. I hear stories about it all the time and it doesn't seem like a big deal.

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But there are other people who act like they would never in a million years say something hurtful to the one they love. They've never fought seriously ever and have been the happiest they've ever been all the time. Never any threats of ending the relationship, saying how much they wish they were different, nothing. It's like putting on a show for everyone, making it look like your the happiest.

I'm going to dinner with my best friend Dorry. She is like my unbiological sister. She has never once let me down in the time I've known her, and I know tonight will be no different.

Thank goodness for this blog. I'd be driving myself crazy without being able to think this out by writing it down =]

I feel cheated.

I love Nintendo Wii. I especially love Wii Sports. I'm actually good at sports that way. Tennis, baseball, and bowling are my favorites.

So last night, a few of my friends & I decided to go bowling and hang out. It was basically a couples bowling night. We got some food, those of legal age got drinks and we were ready to play. I was like "Yes! Lets see if Wii helped me improve!"

You see, on Wii, I can score in the 200's and higher. I can get six or seven strikes in a row and be top dog.

It was a sad reality check when I bowled in real life and on my first game I scored a 67.

Sigh. It was an ego killer. I had a lot of fun though. And I think were going to do this once a week. So hopefully my real skills will catch up to my Wii skills. Lol.

A day with Bean.

Today I'm watching my friend's daughter Jordan. She has a class to go to and her regular sitter fell through today, so I happily left laundry and cleaning at my house to come and play instead.


Well, except for now. She's glued to an episode of the Backyardigans =]


Pretty much, there's nothing too interesting going on in my life. Sad, huh?


I think the only interesting thing I have to look forward to is a girls night sometime this weekend. It'll be nice. I haven't had a group of girls to hang out with in a long time and it's so nice to have that again.


Anyways, I'm gonna get on out of here. I got a cute little girl to play with!!

A new day

Four hours, twenty one minutes and thirty seconds until a new era in our country begins.

I'm up at four thirty in the morning ironically, because there is no way I'm going to miss this historic event. I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am to have a new president, one that I truely do believe in and have high expectations for.

I do believe President Elect Barack Obama will bring a change to our nation. And it can't come soon enough.

I am willing to accept that he will make mistakes, nothing happens over night and it will take time. I don't expect a miricle out of him.

Even if you didn't vote for him, don't convince yourself he's going to run us into the ground. Have some faith. Nobody is perfect.

I've waited for this day for so long, I'm ready to see it happen.

Four hours, fourteen minutes and 34 seconds.

Change.

A great weekend.

All I can get across really is the fact that I'm pooped.

Boyfriends party went awesome. Fiesta theme is fun & makes a great party, no joke. Try it =]

These past couple days have been so busy, all I want to do is sleep my life away. But I can't. I have work tomorrow. I must say this too.. taking a break from school [even if it was due to money issues and scheduling conflicts] has made my life practically stress free. And it feels so good! The community college I go to started Thursday & even though my plan was to enroll last minute, I just couldn't come up with the money. I guess it's all part of growing up. Money becomes a bigger problem and you have to compensate accordingly. School just didn't make the cut this time around, as sad as it is. But I also need to give my brain a rest, recollect and find what I want to go to school for before I waste my time & money there.

I'm on a new path. After feeling it out, I've come to feel it's okay. I'm my own person. I can make my own decisions. I know whats best for myself right now.

I've also followed the crowd with this signature business. Ha ha. Pretty nifty I must admit. I saw it on numerous blogs, and I just had to follow along. Don't you just love it?

Viva la fiesta!!

An afternoon of browsing, brainstorming and goofing off led to a conversation that decided it all.

An hour and $91.00 later, my handsome boyfriend will be getting a 'surprise' fiesta twenty first birthday party!

I tried to make the whole thing a big shocker surprise bit, but no one showed any interest, nor offered any help. I called and called and asked and begged. Nothing.*eye roll*Next time someone wants to be all cool and awesome and throw a surprise party for someone they care about, don't even bother asking me. No money, No "can you bring something?", No "can you be here in the morning to set up?", NOTHING. I'm tired of doing things for people in hopes they will return the favor when I need it.

So, because some were not so nice, I decided to just ask Zach if he wanted to have some people over and he said sure. I told him to call everyone he wanted there and made sure to tell them 8pm on Friday. Before hand, he is going to be meeting a few guys at a bar or his first "legal" drink.We'll be setting up all the stuff as soon as he leaves. The fiesta theme will be the surprise and I must say, it's going to be quite the night.

All the stuff is in the trunk of my car. I got plates, napkins, cups, wall decorations, hanging decorations, a blow up cactus, a blow up chili pepper, a blow up sombrero cooler thing... I got the birthday boy a sombrero he's going to have to wear all night. lol. I'm going to make a list of rules he has to follow to insure that it doesn't come off all night. =]

My mom picked out a pair of orange beads with a plastic shot glass attached to the bottom of it. She was getting as into it as I was! We are planning on making a chili pepper shaped cake on Friday. That is going to be very interesting. I'm afraid it's going to go badly and were going to have to go buy one =/

I still have some other things to buy. I need crepe paper and I want to get a pinata. I have a balloon order set for pick up on Friday, but I might need to add a few more on to tie outside. Beats me.

I have so much to do before Friday. Ack!

A birthday in the making.

Zach's big 21st birthday is exactly a week from today. I've been tossing the idea of a surprise party for him around since November, but I've never been big on birthday parties. Neither is he. Were the people that never get thought of for our own birthday by friends. We're not the kind who get surprise parties, anything special. It's not that important, but sometimes it gets irritating when everyone else gets that kind of thing on their birthday and your expected to pitch in with money, help out all day and stay the whole time. Sometimes you just want that in return, no?

But I figured 21 is the birthday most looked forward to, so I've spent a majority of my afternoon plotting and scheming. Calls have been made to friends, I decided to make the cake myself, and made a shopping list for chips, dip and of course, alcohol.

My mom so graciously agreed to shop for that last item for me =]

I have not dropped hints, haven't mentioned the word party, nothing. The most I've brought up is there anything special he wanted and if he knew if his friends were planning anything.

I need to get decorations, balloons, all that good party stuff. I don't know if the party will be held at our house or one of our friends house. We'll see. The goal is to make this go so unnoticed, he'll freak out.

Hopefully he will learn by example and I'll get a big 21st too =D

A tiny post from the boyfriends computer.

Out of frustration, I pulled the plug on my HP and let the thing die. It's battery life without the charger is about 45 minutes, maybe. I read on Rachels blog that if you unplug it and let it die and plug it in 5 hours later, it might extend the battery life. She was going to try it so I wanted to try too. I have yet to plug the stupid thing back in, and right now, I have no desire to deal with it.


Today was a better day than yesterday. I started babysitting for a woman I know who is starting nursing school. Two days a week now, and five days come March. It was a great day. After I left, I got on the phone with Bank Of America to see if I could get the stupid over draft fee's deducted a bit. $75.00 for two charges under $10.00 total was a bit too ridiculous for me. It got a bit worse after having a complete stranger tell me I need to be more responsible with my money and make sure I have it before spending it. Rude much? Shockingly, the reduced it!! So now I only owe like $30.00 or something. Thank goodness. I'm not made of money and no one these days are.


Tonight I'm hoping to lay around the house and do nothing. I need to move some furniture around to make my room more livable before I go nuts.


Have a good night =]

The good, the bad & the ugly.

Today has been a serious day of ups and downs.

Up- I sent my car payment in. A bit late, but better late than never, right?

Down- A new one came right after the one I sent was taken. *Sigh*

Down- Apparently my bank account was over drafted when I used my card. I charged $1.92, Bank Of America shoots an over draft fee of $35.00.

Up- A lady I baby sit for sometimes got into nursing school after being wait listed, and starts tomorrow. She called me in a panic and hired me to watch her youngest son Trent five days a week. I was freaking out about money when she called =]

Down- My laptop is crapping out big time. A few weeks ago, Zach bought a virus/Internet protection thing at Best Buy for his new laptop and told me to install it on mine. I got rid of MacAfee (ick) and installed it. It took pretty much all night to do. I ran a scan, and surprise! My sad laptop is chuck full of viruses and trojans. I have no clue how to get rid of them.

Sadly, there is no up to that last one. I feel like MacAfee screwed me over big time. It really looked like it was keeping all those off my laptop, but I was fooled. I'm thinking about getting rid of AOL all together. They're on my you-know-what list.

Also with this new job I took, I'm going to have to scoot my school schedule around. I'm debating whether or not a break is in order. My brain feels fried half the time and sometimes I feel like I should be focusing on making more money. I've reached that time in my young person life where money is top, even before school. If anything, I'll stay enrolled in a class or two and just take my time. I honestly don't feel bad or whatever about not keeping up with my friends or people my age getting through school. I need to make sure I have an income to even pay for these classes.

Ugh... I need some Exederin.

I feel like throwing my computer.

Really. I have all these pictures and can't do anything with them. I can't upload them to blogger, myspace or even facebook. It'll go through the whole loading process and once it finishes, it'll say 'error' or 'your computer isn't connected to the Internet' or something equally frustrating.

It has to be my computer. There is no way every site I try to put pictures on is screwed up all at the same time, especially because everyone else seems to be loading pictures perfectly. I scanned for viruses, erased cookies, got rid of programs I never use on my computer. I even deleted old pictures. Nothing seems to be helping.

My laptop is only about two and a half years old and it's already taking a dump. What.The.Heck.

I don't have the money to replace it right now. I don't have the money to take it to get fixed. I'm thinking about just putting my pictures on my flash drive and having my Dad revamp my whole hard drive. Just clear the whole thing and start from scratch. There just doesn't seem to be any other option.

I'm grumpy because I'm still tired. I fell asleep as soon as I posted my entry yesterday and slept until seven or so. I fell asleep again close to one and slept until nine this morning. I blame this awful cold. I'm going on two weeks with it and it doesn't seem to be going anywhere. The girl who never gets sick has already had two colds in two months.

Sigh.

We're home.

And we are exhausted.

Disneyland was fantastic. It was chilly and cloudy mostly, but I've decided that cold temps at a park so huge for sure beats the summer heat. It even rained some while we were there. The park was all decked out for Christmas and we had a great time.

My cold still hasn't gone away and has gotten worse. My voice is shot, I have a nasty cough and it seems to have moved into my eyes. They are red, sore and goopy. Really cute, I know. I have also found a new hatred for tennis shoes. I have the worlds flattest feet. I have no arch whatsoever so I tend to stick to flip flops (even in winter), slippers and Ugg boot knock offs. I simply can't be comfortable in tennis shoes. These past days spent walking have murdered my feet. You'd laugh at me if you saw the way I walk right now. I feel like I should have a wheelchair or a cane.

I have plenty of pictures, but I have no energy to sit here and fight with blogger to upload them one at a time. I'm having a hard time just keeping my eyes open.
I hope you all had a Happy New Year! Zach and I hung out with some friends, watched them shoot of big fire works and went home shortly after. We had to finish packing and get to bed so we could make the drive the next morning.

Anyways.. I'm off to take a nap. Spelling is getting hard. Haha.