Man oh man.

I can say right now, its been a week of weeks.


I knowingly walked into a situation prepared to share some words, accusations and possibly prevent my best friend from beating up... my old best friend.


None of that happened. Everyone played nice, polite conversation. She even came up to me after a little while and told me she wasn't mad at me. That's cool. Doesn't make what happened right nor was it an apology. I guess at this point I won't be bothered running into her as much as I used to, but that's about it.


No more than ten minutes later, my Dorry gets into a blow out with her brother and we leave. Didn't see that coming. I was disappointed. I thought it was going a different way, and I'm a little confused about the situation now.


I want Dorry to be okay with her brother, regardless of what happened a year ago. It happened, it sucked that it happened and there is no going back to what we all used to be. But for the sake of their family, their father, just for the sake that they're twins even..


We all know who is wrong. We all know an apology along with an explanation is owed. But nobody is ready to back down. The stakes are being held too high. The wrong compromises are being attempted and its flat out not doing anybody any good.


If I knew this was going to happen, I would have warned someone back then. The aftermath is beyond belief.

Thursday... morning.

For some wacky reason, my brain has me fooled into thinking it's Friday. I don't know if its because the kids around here are off Friday or what, but this week has been long.


Jury duty went well. Thank God I was early & one of the first people to check in. I was called along with the other first 11 people to check in, and we were put on a Coroners Jury. The lawyer guy rushed us because the hearing or whatever was to start at 9am, and told us we'd be done by... noon =)


We had to meet in another building a couple blocks away and before we left he told us how lucky we were. Since the weekend before had included Labor Day, all the stuff that had to be done Monday was pushed to Tuesday. They had plenty of stuff to go around, all groups had to show up, and the people that weren't one of the twelve in my group would have to report for the next THREE days.


I thanked my lucky stars and myself for being prompt and on time, regardless of how bad I didn't want to be there. I was rewarded =)


By the way, silly me for thinking you had to dress a little nicer and business like to go to Jury Duty. My slacks & top were indeed adorable, but everyone I saw had jeans, shorts or something a little less business like on. I almost felt ridiculous.


I suppose I wouldn't mind doing it again, although it would be fun to go at the same time as a friend. Have someone to chat with and all that. Maybe next year!


I have the day off today, which is why I'm still up. I can't sleep for the life of me tonight. Even with a long day at work under my belt, I just can't shake being awake. Ugh.


On that note, I'm going to go attempt to bore myself to sleep. Good night!

It'll always be different.

On this day every year, I'm always quieter. The sun never shines like it usually does. Everything just drags on. I always remember that day vividly, without any problem.


I've never met anybody who had a family member or a friend in the towers. I did. I had two, in fact. I remember all day my family trying to call over and over and not getting anywhere. Family around here called each other all day to see if anyone had heard. It was terrifying. It was unreal.


The next day was when we got the email from my dad's cousin Dave. He worked in the North tower and his wife Marie, worked in the South tower. The subject read "We're okay". The best two words ever read.


Our family was so VERY lucky. Dave had worked at Cantor Fitzgerald on the 105th floor of the North tower, but had moved to another office building a few days before. Marie had gotten out despite being told to go back to her office on the 26th floor of the South Tower after the North tower was hit.


I still can't believe I was in New York only two weeks before. I still cringe when I watch the footage they play ever year. I don't want to, but I can't keep myself from not watching.


My family was very blessed that day. We didn't lose them.


But I always think about the ones who did.

Jury Duty.

I changed up my blog to look more 'Fall' appropriate. A little muted, but very cute. I also changed my music too. 3 country songs and a remix song by Katy Perry with this guy/s called LMFAO. Its a pretty awesome remix. Zach actually made me listen to it. Hah. I guess he likes it because the guy basically slams Katy Perry for slamming guys.


I have jury duty on the 8th. I'm not excited. I do not want to go. I hope and pray to God when I call on Monday night they say "We do not need group 1." As you might have guessed, I am group one. I see absolutely no thrill in sitting all day in a crowded room with other people as we all waste our time together missing work, school or other fun activities with nothing to do. At the end of the day they are going to send us all off anyway saying "thanks, but we don't have anything for you!"


Civil duty? I suppose. Torture? Yes. Necessary? NO.


I think the least the justice system can do is know they need all these folks before making them miss work, miss school, even miss out on NOTHING before forcing us to drive out of our way to perform our civil duty.


If you have any thoughts, let me know. I'd love to hear your yay's or nay's on Jury Duty!

Sick?

I've been feeling sick the past couple days. I've had headaches, stomachaches, nausea, and I'm exhausted. I've spent a few days sleeping in way too long. Saturday was the worst. I slept all day until 5:30. I've never done that before. I really hope I'm not catching anything.


Nothing new is going on around here. I actually wish I had something to blog about. But, I have the worlds most boring life.


Although, here is something interesting. The Douggers from TLC's 18 Kids & Counting are expecting baby #19. Crazy huh?

Friday =)

This week has been a fun filled week. Many events here and there. I learned a lot this week.


Lets do a fun facts, shall we?




1.) This week, I totally stooped down to a 5 year olds level. I just couldn't help myself. He announced he didn't have to listen to me, so two minutes later when he needed to talk to me, I told him the exact same thing. It didn't accomplish much. Really, it just prompted him to talk to me more about why I wouldn't talk to him. I love my job =)


2.) I wandered into Victoria's Secret earlier this week with a friend of mine and when the saleswoman caught me looking at bra's, asked if I needed to be fitted. I said no thanks, but she insisted, just to make sure I knew my 'proper' size. I reluctantly let her but stood my ground. Come on! I know my size! I've been dealing with my girls a long time now.


"You said you were in a 38C?" saleswoman asked.
"Yeah! I knew I was," I responded, a little proud a proved her wrong.
"Oh, honey you've been wearing the wrong size."


Turns out, I was wrong. And trying on the bra she recommended only made me realize what I was missing in my life. But when recommended bra was $49.95, I bailed. I hear Target calling my name this morning.


3.) I mentioned before Zach started a new job. Awesome! What's not awesome is he has become a chatty-kathy in the middle of the night. Every so often (which give or take is 20 minutes) he stirs, and just starts talking! Half the time I can't understand him. What he's saying is mumbled or jumbled around. Other times, he laughs. And twice he's grabbed me and told me to watch out for stuff. Mostly he chats about boats. It's weird.


Today is Friday, and I'm exhausted. I got no sleep last night. I mean, I've been up almost twenty-four hours. Lately, me sleeping is a miracle. It's just not happening for me. Today I'm sure will be uneventful. I have no plans. Just a ton of laundry. Hope you all have a good weekend!!

My current state of chaos

-I have NO carpet in my room anymore. Some one, I don't know who,(DAD) came and cut it out of my room. Did I mention he just cut around my furniture? There are four blocks of carpet left where my dresser, desk, bed and shelf unit sit. I have the glorious task of choosing a day to move this stuff and take the rest out. Sigh.


-Last night, I didn't sleep. I tried sitting in the dark, watching whatever was on TV, (which is nothing, but we'll soon hit that note), movie.. nothing worked. I got back online around 4am to watch YouTube videos and did that till 7. I had a three hour nap this afternoon, but I'm running on brain farts right now.


-Cable TV means nothing to me anymore. We have always had basic cable. Now, if that's what you have, you have NOTHING! We have channels 2-34. It used to be 2-82. There are no more than 5 watchable channels now, and my dad has no intention of getting the boxes to bring them back. Cry for me.


-Zach and I have fallen into a funk. You know, the ones that hit every relationship every now and then? Nothing dramatic, no real fighting. We've been picking at each other. He works a million hours a week, and we haven't seen each other lately. It's just one of those times. Yuck.


-I hate California this week.The weather was cooling off and then, BAM. Today it was hazy, muggy, scorching hot and overall, unpleasant. I had a hard time keeping my eyes open outside. It was awful. Bring on Fall!!!!!


-As hot as it was outside, double the temperature inside. My mom ran the air all day, but it magically kicked off when my Dad got home. The house immediately heated right back up. My room sits right below the attic and above the garage. You might as well plunk my bedroom in the middle of Palm Springs in the dead of summer. My room cannot stay cool on its own like the rest of the house. Even now at 11pm, there is no trace of a breeze outside.


-The worst part of all these complaints? It's only Monday. I wonder how much worse this week could get?

August already?

July was so filled with events, it kind of flew by. I've been away from my computer too much to even put in a significant blog about anything. Work, tons of family events.. I barely found time to sleep.


So far, August is looking bleak. I really am looking forward to it. Besides working, I have nothing to fill my calender with. That's a relief in itself.


Right now I'm sitting and waiting for laundry to dry. Exciting right? We just got home Sunday night from Santa Barbra. My cousin got married and it was a fun weekend. I'm going to leave you with some fun pictures we took there. They had a photo booth! The whole idea was you got in, took a couple strips of pictures and then made a page for the married couple make into a scrap book. The station was filled with black & white paper, sharpies and a bunch of stickers. Fabulous idea, no?


We decided to do two family pages for her. One with Aunts & uncles, the other with all the cousins. So I only had to give up one picture =)

Everything looks beautiful in black and white.